Clean lives of unrighteousness daily

Why must you do keep doing the same

Will you be able to see the evil in your deeds

How can you ever succeed


Planting seeds of dismay

Plotting to get your way

Selfishness is your foundation for business

Bitter regrets soothed your mind as you slept


Foggy thoughts of leaving distraught

No longer clearing your thoughts

Hard fought debates of baiting innocent victims

Lounging in corners of darkness


In the light of day

There is no way

You can see the Son rise

But be filled with demise



Pick a struggle truly

Deep conversations uncovering

A lingering aroma that wreaks

Can an outlook be that bleak


Turmoil fermented in an oven

Rage ablaze in the cornea

Sizzling thoughts enforcing negativity

Spewing thoughts of change


Instances producing grimaces

Processing outcomes that shifts ones thinking

Inward parameters causing a G-force

Leaving souls entrenched with remorse


Overextending activity in everything

Checking the pulse without remorse

Zeroing in on the true idea

Of the true cause and paused


My plan consisted of making sure the relationship was healthy

A spin entailing the demise of the black man

Knowing the devil is in the details

A layer of nonchalant views fortified as calcium deposits


Hardened hearts become a depository for dismay

Communication requests being used as suppositories

Defending points in opposition of the world view

All along the foundation was out of skew


Emotions running rampant

In the hearts of many seemingly weak

Riddled with insecurity

Positive relationships are a major incapability


Allergic to cats

That famed saying will not define me

Upon my throne I sit

Waiting on him to find me

Relationship Tomb

Defeated sensibilities writhing in a broad smile

Elongated conversations leading to tragedies

Mismanaged emotions erupting into savagery

Blurred images of what we once were


Who was I way back when

An insecure sycophant

Ranting and raving about the time we spent

Concealing the true pain of isolation


Inconsolable feelings down deep inside

A psyche turning inward from disappointment

Generalizations missing the mark

Unable to see the light amongst the dank and dark


Historically strong enough to rebuke this

Only having enough energy to puke this out through a pen

Throwing all of this pain onto this page

Tears streaming from the rage


Seemingly locked up in a cage

Truly feeling as if my thoughts were arrested

Unexpected semblance through a simple text of reflection

Memories bring forth those unresolved issues


Freeing myself from this self-inflicted wound

Burying the former shell of myself

Not ashamed to quit

Dust myself off to become lit


Those experiences initiated the evolution of the woman I am today

Be it as it may

Your level of maturity has become inconsequential

Too many misunderstandings to comprehend


The legend unfortunately legitimized the stigma

Not paying full attention

Being the woman that you desired

Only to be compared to the one who conspired


Destruction has led to this second internment

Unable to compromise to the past

Moving fast on the journey

Lead me to an unfit gurney


I feel vulnerable around you

I am confused about a realistic outcome when it comes to you

How can I even discuss this

What has happened

Should this be labeled as nonsense


A simple game

Innocent conversation

Labelled as good attention

Tension rising from competition

Titillating topics formed from distinct visions


Could your verbiage be it in its totality

The new hook up

Play a game

Get hooked to it

Communicate enough in a way that seems legit


Nothing in common for a date

Disrupting my aura is not up for debate

Relating on a level unbeknownst to us

Needing to break away

Yearning for the touch of your hand


Knowing my emotions will cause a crisis

Text messages equaling 1000

Just from one night spent

Fantasies becoming real in an instant

Unfortunately you have become irrelevant


Peace of mind accompanies me every night

As I close my eyes my mind drifts off into bliss

Those words heard earlier are truly not even missed

Matter of fact that negativity needs to be dismissed


I might not be as happy as you believe I should be

My goals may not have been achieved fully

The white picket fence you envisioned

Has diminished to a sign supported by white pillars


The beauty I possess

Somehow brings you distress

Being the person I am

Has you up early in the am


Expressing yourself vigorously

When I open up to you

Suddenly you cower

My issues seem to tower over you


I will not lower my standards

To substantiate your view of me

Unwed with an empty womb

Unwilling to bow down unless he is my groom


No room to swoon

Too grown to settle

As your life dismantles

I pass the mantle of balance


Know your worth

Be you own best friend

No need to surround yourself with sound

Your gifts can satisfy you in leaps and bounds


As I sleep soundly

Visions of what my life could be invades your space

Until you are honored as deity

Pull up a chair while you embrace piety


Can solve varies problems

Instantaneously developing answers for other areas of life

Various constants changing the game plan

Leaving these behind to upgrade


Feeds the multitude of youth

Sustenance has created a need

Pertaining to growth

Always coming back to take notes


One races with pride

Anxious to cross that line

What number have you placed

Disqualified from this race


What have you concocted

That has them professing their undying love every August

In April claims are made

Feelings enslaved